Thanks

I just got a notice from Word press a couple days ago. I registered with them…NINE YEARS ago. Egad.

Apparently, I also made my 100th post a couple days ago, too! I never would have thought I had actually used this blog that much. In the beginning I just wanted to see the service. Check it out. I liked the blogs I had hosted on my website better and stuck with them until my webhost made server changes that broke them irretrievably.

During 2016 when hubby was so terribly ill and so terribly abused by the medical profession and hospitals (It reached a point where we believed they were actively TRYING to KILL him) I blogged a great deal about what was going on on my Blogger blog. After all that, after we moved here, I wanted a fresh start away from all that.

Meanwhile, I had started watching more and more anime, and reading about it as well. I started to follow and comment on several blogs here on WordPress. So when I began my cautious reapproachment to blogging, it was only natural to finally really start using this blog for the first time. To write on, that is.

And here we are.

Most of all, I just want to say that I have found a little community here where I am comfortable. Which, given my general issues with the human race, let alone friendship and emotional attachments, is a rare and special thing. Internet communities have not always turned out to be a good thing for me. For the first time in a very long time I am writing things to share, and sharing them in a place where I feel reasonably safe.

Thank you guys.

Blessedbe

Summer Foovay

Seven Things to love about Horse Haven

I’ve been a Horse Haven player since the old days when it was only on Facebook. Since then there has been so many great improvements!  Today I’d like to highlight seven of my favorite improvements to Horse Haven in the last few months, and especially with the current Carnival.

#7 – I’ve rated this lowest because it is sort of an anti-compliment, but I do want to include it and give the devs a big thank you for it. In the past when Horse Haven had an update, I admit to groaning and rolling my eyes. An “update” generally meant the game would be broken to the point of being unplayable for up to a week or more. That said, the last few updates have gone really smoothly. Of course there are small glitches, but nothing like “the old days” and most of them are quickly corrected over the next couple of days. Much better. Kudos. Thank you.

#6 – The new polished horses are by and large gorgeous! I especially appreciate the little nuances, such as the slight glow the fantasy horses have, and especially the sort of iridescent light effects where the sunbeams hit the horses coats while in the stable. Wonderful little touches of finesse. I am impressed. (By the way, I play both on Nox as you see in these screenshots, and on my phone)

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#5 – The expansion of the ability to watch a commercial in order to earn diamonds, or to skip a feeding, or skip the wait time for various things. Love it!

#4 – The new switchy button. I’m not sure how else to put it, but if you’ll look in the lower right hand corner of this screen shot, you’ll see that we can now easily bounce from the grand stable interior to the switch screen where you can switch horses from the grand stable to the outer stables and visa versa. It’s a little tweak – but I really like it. Thanks!

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#3 – Opportunity to earn Constellation II and Specials in the Carnival event. In fact, I’ve always really loved this one thing about Horse Haven. If you missed purchasing a special horse, sooner or later (and I have been playing a very long time) you get another opportunity to earn it through special events. Thank you!

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#2 -Speeding up the game. Crops grow faster. Feeds manufacture faster. And I especially love that the horses grow up faster. I dearly love being able to raise a foal to adult in (I timed it today) LESS THAN five minutes. Love it! Thank you!

#1 – Small packages!

AT LAST!!!!  For years all of the things you purchase with money at Horse Haven, have for the most part cost at least $15 and usually more. My gaming budget is small, and my discretionary income is really small, and often quite gone long before the end of the month. So especially if  something is only available for a few days in the middle or end of the month and costs $20, there is just no way I can buy it.

Once upon a time I played some other games that constantly sprinkled little specials throughout the month that cost $1 or $2. I would hate to tell you how much I spent over several years in $1 and $2 purchases! How I longed for Horse Haven to do the same.

And now, at last, they have!  $1 for a few diamonds, and a 50% increase in Carnival points for a day? I can do that! Wait – $5 for a few more diamonds and a 50% increase in Carnival points for the rest of the event? I’m in! I’ve bought several of the $1 packages just to encourage the devs to do it again! Do it forever!

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Thank you, Horse Haven devs for all these great new improvements to the game!

 

 

Sketch A Day check up

Last week I did six sketches and got 58 likes. I did break my streak though. Actually, I broke all streaks yesterday for a very good reason. We adopted a kitty. She deserves her own post, of course, so let’s see if this bright idea I had works to make it easier to get the sketches into this blog.

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Prompt – accept. Pencil on paper.

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Prompt – wander. Digital. Looks like I’m pretty settled on Autodesk Sketchbook on the phone.

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Prompt – snap. I had far bigger and better plans for this drawing, but for some reason my phone was not tracking finger strokes very well that day. So, yes, digital, on the phone.

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Prompt – hoop. Colored markers on paper, which I settled for because of time. I wandered off and watched Navaho Hoop dancing videos for a while (blush) This is the Navaho Medicine Wheel.

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Prompt – bloom. Another finger sketch on the phone. To my amusement, this flower that I whipped up in like two minutes is the champion for number of likes. You just never can tell what people will like…

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Prompt – Identify. Pencil on paper. Somewhere down the line it lost a lot of detail.

Now we post and see if this system worked to get the pictures from phone to blog.

I am not sharing to Instagram or Facebook as much because it’s such a pain in the ass for me to type any text on the phone to identify the prompt and media. So if you are one of the two or three people who care at all, you might find it best to follow it on the blog 😀

Blessedbe

Summer Foovay

Sketch A Day Stats Check Up

Sketch a Day (here at the Google Play Store) offers me a daily challenge. I ran onto it while looking at different drawing programs. Mainly I need a new program to replace my old Paint Shop Pro 9, which no longer works quite right with Windows 10 after a gazillion updates on my ten year old (give or take) laptop computer. Since I had to pry my mind open to even consider a new drawing program, I managed to decide I would also at least consider one on the phone. And then I saw Sketch A Day and thought it would be a great little motivator to keep me moving forward as I try out different programs to find another that I not only like, but can learn in less than another decade.

Today (a Tuesday) Sketch A Day surprised me with what I guess will be a weekly check up and stats, along with the images of the sketches from last week. Now the whole thing is set up to share my sketches on Facebook, and I normally go ahead and put them on Instagram since that’s easy from my phone. Whether I do the sketch “analog” with old fashioned pencil and paper, or whether I make it on my phone,  I post it from my phone’s photo gallery. But I have been sort of wanting to post them on this blog as well, although there is no really easy way to do it, since normally I blog from my old laptop. When I got the once a week stats thingie, I thought it might be a good reminder to put them on the blog once a week. Tuesday is a good day as I am normally home long enough to wrangle photos from the phone to the computer to the blog.

Monday/Wednesday/Friday are dialysis days for the hubby. With the time spent on the Transit bus, and the general exhaustion an empath feels after a day in a dialysis clinic, well – it’s a good day to sketch from the phone. So far I’ve been through three different sketching programs on the phone and I don’t much like any of them. Ibis Paint did the lovely sketch on Monday, then on Wednesday suddenly would only allow me to draw with a white brush on a white background. Yeah. Uninstalled. Wednesday I tried Pocket Paint – meant for little kids. I thought that would mean I could use it, too. It was nicely intuitive to draw with – but for unknowable reasons switched from white background to black background when the art posted – vanishing my outlines in the process! Also vanishing some details I considered necessary. Friday I went back to an old friend, Autodesk Sketchbook, which I used to have on the Kindle Fire. Not a good friend, but one I could rely on when I had limited time to draw before the deadline.

Now it appears that I cannot look back at the week except that one flash of stats, and neither Sketch A Day nor my phone will put the sketch photos in one single album for access. That would be too easy. After an hour and a half fighting websites and programs and phone and gallery and computers – here’s last weeks sketches with prompts and notes.

Ow. My head hurts from pounding it on the desk. My hubby is making homemade oatmeal and raisin cookies. Next week this will hopefully be easier.

Assemble, for some unknowable reason, garnered the most likes – ten of the total 28 for the week. I suspect that it has to do with all of us having opened one of those boxes marked “some assembly required” at some point in our lives – and despaired.

Identify was my submission today and I think it might actually be on next week’s stats. So what is missing? Fuck if I know and I can’t face trying to figure it out. I sketched seven days in a row. Done. 😛

(Fiction) Moonlight Encounter

 

As always, he slept outside the city walls under the stars, lightly concealed by a fallen tree and high grass. He heard the whisper of her passing and, curious, he rose and followed her. Together they made no more noise than the brushing of the wind through the leaves.

She stopped in a circular clearing in a grove of ancient oaks and there she set an athame in the ground. It glowed silver in the light of the full moon. With a rustle, she dropped the robe from her shoulders and became skyclad. Raising her face and hands to the moon, she sang.

He recognized ritual and knew he should not be there, gazing on the silvered outline of her body. Still, he could not help but stay for a moment, to feast his eyes on such beauty revealed in the moon’s pure white light before he silently slipped away and returned to his den of the night.

It was only a short time later that he heard her coming through the grasses. She paused and he knew he had been spied. His eyes were still closed, to not let a gleam of moonlight reflected give away his wakefulness. Suddenly he felt a frission of energy pass over and through him and knew she had taken a moment and spared the energy to bless him in the light of the moon before she turned and went on her way. In his thoughts he gave her thanks – and heard her feet pause for only a second – and then go on.

After all, nature lovers both, they were not so different.

And soon they’ll be off to adventure together? Hmmm..one of those middle of the night – okay, right at bedtime – ideas that insisted I get back up and note it down about a year ago now. Anyone want to know what happened next?

Original work, copyright 2020 Summer Fey Foovay, etc etc etc. All legalize aside, I really am a witch, and karma works.  

Level 100 at Castle Cats

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A few days ago I was thrilled to achieve level 100 on Castle Cats. It came with a few nice perks, as you can see, and I had also only recently scored the cool Samurai outfit for my avatar cat from a guild leader item box. And before I could find the time to blog brag about it, this happened:

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Yep, Level 101 and the black wings came from one of the Reputation rewards. This screen gives you a nice snapshot, with how many heroes I have, quests completed and so on. It’s a tribute to my addiction. I could probably give you 101 reasons I love this simple idle heroes type game. But that would be much too long for a blog post.

I believe what truly makes this game for me is the graphics. I love the cats. They are very well animated both when just walking around looking adorable, and in battle. In general, I am not impressed with animals that have been anthromorphized extensively, but somehow Castle Cats’ artists have struck the sweet spot between cats that look like cats, but who have distinct qualities of various heroic characters blended in with a good dose of sugary cuteness.

Castle Cats makes me chuckle quite frequently. The tongue in cheek text in stories and character descriptions, as well as the occasional speech balloon from a cat and the special graphics for the attacks by various cats. In fact, I have an evil plan to create an entire blog post devoted to all those amusing attacks.

Speaking of sweet spots, Castle Cats has also found the sweet spot between fun and obligation. They do have daily tasks, which can largely be accomplished in a matter of minutes if you are in a hurry that day to do more important things (what could be more important? Well, you know, RL) and even if I’m only doing a “drive by” I still generally get a little smile from something in this game. When I have more time, it is a real pleasure to just play around. I can spend ridiculous amounts of time “playing dolls” with the guild avatar cat’s variety of eyes, coat color, tails, mascots, costumes, and weaponry. You can let battles idle, or join in and tap your fingers bloody while chuckling at the unique attack effects. If you are like my hubby and I and play and do several things at once, it’s a fun game to leave running and open while you concentrate on something on another device. You never know what you’ll catch your kitties up to when you glance up.

Thus ends my first, but certainly not my last, little love letter to Castle Cats.

Put A Tune To It Visits The Golden Oldies

I got tagged, I got tagged! No, really, I was kind of shocked. I’ve been tagged a time or two since so, wow, people noticed me. And here I thought I was doing such a fine job of flying under the radar. Well, as part of my intention for 2020 to blog at least monthly, and preferably even more often than that, let me just take care of this tag thing!

Now I admit, I’ve been sitting on it for a while. I’ve read several posts with this tag, trying to make sure I really get it. Sometimes I think I’m missing the point. But I think I’ve got this now.

The Rules:

  • Choose any number of western songs (any genre) that you think best sums up an anime or manga of any type or genre.
    • If you want to pick more than 1 from each section that’s fine. Or if you can’t think of one for a specific category that’s fine also.
  • Explain why you think your choices could work. Is it the lyrics? The tune and the beat? Or just the music video?
  • Link back to the original post so I can read people’s suggestions, I’d love to read everyone’s ideas.
  • Include Put a Tune to It in your tags so everyone including myself can find them all easily.
  • Nominate around 1-5 bloggers.

First I was happy to be tagged. Then my mind went blank. Apparently my subconscious was mulling it over for these last few weeks while I thought I was doing more important stuff like taking care of a sick hubby. Sicker than usual that is. I’m just digging the hole deeper so I’m going to move on. Oh, he’s better now. All of a sudden one morning my brain presented me with this group of songs and anime matches in one steady stream. And then shut off again.

For the anime Fruits Basket – in honor of their position in my life as my anime gateway drug. (This is a bit tongue in cheek as I don’t blame Fruits Basket for being my first anime love, nor do I think marijuana is a gateway drug for anything).

Well, and somehow I can hear Kyo in the music in his not-a-cat form.

Hmm, I can see writing this is going to take all night. I have to listen to the whole song everytime. These are, by the way, some of my personal all time favorite tunes. (And animes)

For Natsume You-jin Chou – in honor of their position as my second gateway drug and complete fall into anime fandom. And yes, I have been known to sit and smoke pot and watch anime. It’s legal. (I like how the dispensaries here offer “wisdom” discounts to people my age – in honor of those who fought for legalization for most of their lives). And oddly enough, I also associate this “fight” with the conflict between Natsume who is a kind and gentle soul who wants to be friends with the yokai, and the exorcist who uses them as more or less slaves when he doesn’t just smack them out of existence.

I didn’t do this on purpose, but I ‘m beginning to see a bit of a progression here. As this guy falls into his TV like I fell into this surreal world of anime Well, but I chose this tune for Ouran High School Host Club because it suddenly struck me the other day that all those guys do is get money for nothing and their chicks for free.

Because I could not resist, this is for Astra Lost In Space. Besides, Bowie. Anything to share a little Bowie.

I really love the opening theme for Hozuki’s Coolheadedness. Still, I wanted to include one of my favorite animes and one of my favorite songs. The pacing and the lyrics both work for me here. The demons are all working so hard – and here we are in the mundane world doing our best to do as little as possible. Which is generally what lands us in Hozuki’s jurisdiction.

I saw these guys perform live a long long time ago.

I haven’t been able to watch the new seasons of PsychoPass – but it is by far one of my favorite animes. It brings science fiction back to the “speculative” fiction it used to be, that I loved so much. Is it wrong that this is also one of my most favorite songs. I don’t hear voices in my head. Exactly. Not really.

This may take some explanation. Or maybe not. From the minute I first heard this song I saw sexy women dancing to it in my head. I danced to it. Nekkid. In front of people. I never was quite as sexy as Yuuko in XXXholic and so I hereby dedicate this song to her. She could totally be my waifu.

And in honor of Iron Blood Orphans from a lifelong pacifist who can still think giant robots fighting in space are cool and who did not miss the point that war is bad for children and other living things.(I had a patch that said that on my jean jacket – back when the war we meant was in Vietnam)

I think I’ve gone from a total blank to “I can’t stop this now…” and gone overboard. Too much? Well, grant me ONE more because that last song is so somber. And even more so because it is also true. Still. Forty years later.

So let’s end on a happy note.

I really love all the music for Polar Bear Cafe. In fact, I love pretty much everything about that anime. Because it makes me feel just like this song does.

I was tagged by the uplifting Pinkie of Pinkie’s Paradise and if you want a daily dose of sunshine you should be reading her blog. I also happened to luck out and find the original post for Put A Tune To It! Thanks to Shallow Dives In Anime  for this fun tag. And yes, I even tagged a post for a change. This one.

Many if not all of the bloggers I follow the most have done this tag. But I think maybe these fine folk were somehow missed.

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I’m kind of on the outskirts, I think. If you want to be tagged, raise your hand, I’d be happy to share 😀 .

Blessedbe

Happy Cat Day! 3 Fun Cat Things

cat1It’s Cat Day in Japan – as is every February 22nd. The Japanese phrase for this date sounds like a cat meowing; nyanyanya and so it has become Cat Day.

As a reformed Crazy Old Cat Lady I welcome this brief instant of indulging in cats, cats, cats and more cats. Sadly, I don’t currently have a situation that welcomes a real pet cat (weep weep weep) although I hope to maybe be able to invite a new kitty to our home later this year. How did I go from a crazy old cat lady with 50 cats (and 30 dogs) and other pets, to this little old lady with an RV and computers?  What a long, strange trip it has been. But that’s not what this is about.

This is about the cats you can enjoy today on your computer. And phone.

My Roommate is a Cat is a sweet, warm, and slightly sad little slice of life anime that any cat lover will enjoy. It follows a young man who has just lost his parents. He thinks he is just fine. He isn’t – which we cat lovers can tell in an instant when he is adopted by a kitten and trained up into a proper cat slave. The anime has an interesting set up. Each episode begins with a bit of the story from the human’s perspective – and then we get the same events from the kitten, later cat’s perspective. This series has the feels, from smiles and laughter, to sighs.

No less fun is Poyopoyo. This is another slice of life anime, but about quite a different type of family – country instead of city, and the full nuclear family instead of a single person. It is far more for laughs and happy times. With 52 episodes that are all of 2 and a half minutes long you can binge the whole thing today. It is one of my go-to happy places on a bad day.  It’s cute and perky and I even love the opening tune.

Haha – now you’ll have that stuck in your head all day. I know I will.

Last but hardly least let me recommend Neko Atsume for the anime/gamer/cat person. You can play it in English or Japanese – so there’s a little challenge for those of you learning Japanese. Most of us will probably play it on the phone. It saves locally, so if you change devices you have to – or is that get to – start over. It’s a very simple little game that takes up no more time than you are willing to devote to it. You put down food, some toys and beds, and go away. Wait a few minutes, come back to see which cats are visiting you. The idea is to collect all the cats, pictures of all the cats. The cats will bring you mementos, so you will want to collect all the mementos, too. You can adjust the foods, toys and so on to attract whatever kitty you don’t have yet, or need to see more often so you get their memento. It’s a quiet little time killer that offers the occasional moment of delight.

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I got a memento from Whiteshadow!!  (He’s the Ninja kitty and you don’t see him that often)

So go forth and have a great Cat Day. Hug your kitty for me. Or indulge in these little happy cat things.

 

Blessedbe

Happy Lunar New Year

I really want to attend one of the many Lion Dances available here in Las Vegas, but when I was looking them up yesterday they are all a 90 minute to two hour bus ride each way from our house. Then we had a fairly awful bus ride home from the dialysis clinic  Friday and we just couldn’t face a long ride today.

Besides…Rally Monte Carlo. And with the new set up of their website at WRCplus, I’m really having to battle to stream what I want when I am able to watch it. Every few years they “update” or “upgrade” and it gets worse and worse. However, because I live in the U.S., it’s basically the ONLY coverage of WRC available to me. So I’m trying to learn patience and acceptance… and watch the rally, too.

All that is explanation for why I never got out this month, let alone today, to purchase some nifty new feng shui lunar new year something or other to bless our home with lots of good luck. And we could use it, too. So instead I remembered – gee, I’m an artist.

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So there’s my good luck rattie for 2020.  He’s up on the wall watching over us now.

That was fun. It’s been a long time since I drew much freehand work in old analog mode. Like writing, I burnt myself out on it trying to use it to earn money. It was fun to do something just for us, with no other motive at all and no “standard” or whatever to maintain.

A long time ago a master craftsman told me, “Never do what you love for a living. You’ll learn to hate it.” I think he was just having an especially bad day, but I’ve also found to some extent that is true. So when all those New Agey and Law of Attraction and so forth and so on tell you to do what you love and the money will magically follow – take it with a little grain of salt, eh?

For most of my life I was fortunate to do something I really enjoyed, but it also gave me the money I needed to do what I really loved. Don’t do something you hate for a living. You spend way too much of your life at work to spend all that time doing something you really detest (or come to detest). Find something you enjoy enough that pays well enough that you can do it, enjoy it, and still have time to yourself to do what you love.

Blessedbe

About my PEACE project

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At the beginning of this year I felt a lot of despair. For my country. For this world. More than that, I felt helpless. I have completely given up on the political system in the United States. I no longer believe in the electoral process at all. Maybe once upon a time in the misty days of the 1800s a vote meant something, but no more. Any 11 year old can hack our current voting machines, and even without that so many have been propagandized into voting against their own interests by using polarizing issues. Well, blah blah blah blah.

But I can’t just sit by and watch the world crumble around me. I’m a healer and an empath.

I read an article that said a study had found that people feel more peaceful and think more about peace if they read a quote, or an article about peace – or even simply see the word peace. Just reading the word peace. Think about that.

Since then I have been trying to post a daily quote, preferably with a graphic like the one above on my facebook, twitter, and pinterest accounts. I’m keeping a written journal, and a private online journal. I have a little thing I’m doing in the physical world as well but it’s very small and I don’t want any kind of credit for it. That isn’t what this is about.

I want people to see the word peace and if they are open, let it into their heart and mind.

Watching one of my favorite psychics video for 2020 gave me some more food for thought and while the main word is and always will be peace (I’m a pacifist almost from birth) I am now open to quotes that speak to me that also speak of the power of love, compassion, and forgiveness.

Today, this quote, I had some thoughts I wanted to share and decided to share them here on my blog. I haven’t written in a very long time to any extent. A good long break was what I needed. Now there are words in my head struggling to get out.

At first glance, I’m sure a lot of people rolled their eyes at this quote. After all, how do you even try to love an enemy, or express it to them if you do?

Back when I worked as an exotic dancer and even when I waitressed or bartended, now and then you would get a customer you could swear hated you, hated women, hated everyone but most especially hated themselves. Depending on how badly they acted out, it was tempting to return their nastiness with some of your own. I admit, I dumped a pitcher of beer over a man’s head once.  I’m a work in process, too.

But my reading on self-improvement, and speaking to wise women, suggested another way to deal with them. And I embarked on what I called “nice-ing them to death”. The meaner someone was, the nicer I was to them. I completely ignored whatever nastiness they threw my way, and gave them smiles, loving thoughts, and treated them as if they were my beloved friend. I’m not so self sacrificing that I won’t dodge someone intent on nipple pinching, but I would do it gracefully and without taking any notice of the behavior, still smiling and speaking kindly.

I worked one club where, after our dance set we would walk around the club to each patron and ask for a tip for our dance. It was simply the custom there. Each time that night I stepped up to this man he would say something hateful to me, about me, about dancers, about women in general. He was surly and angry. He was also there alone – sometimes men act that way to impress the people they are with. He was really just that mad at the world – and he figured that I (and the other dancers) were in a position to have to put up with his behavior. Needless to say, he also was not tipping.

For most of the shift, about six hours, I danced about once per hour and after my dance I would go for tips. I would go to this man, ask politely and kindly for a tip. He would snarl. I would continue to smile, be polite, thank him, maybe give him a little curtsy or pat him lightly on the shoulder, wish him a good evening and go on with my business. After the first hour or so most of the dancers stopped going up to him, knowing there was no chance of getting a tip and a good chance of getting an insult. I kept visiting him anyway. With a smile. A kind word. A thank you. Since we also waitressed there I would ask if he needed another beer. You get the picture. No matter how surly and mean he was, I was nice.

Near the end of the night he stopped me.

“You have been nothing but nice to me. I’m sorry I’ve been so hateful. Thank you for being nice to me.” He looked truly regretful. In fact, this big burly angry man actually looked like he might cry. He politely put a wad of money in my hand and held it in both of his for just a moment with his head bowed. Then he rose and left the club.

I don’t know what his story was, why he was so angry and felt like he wanted to be mean, but I do know he left that night just a little bit healed.

When I got back to the dressing room some of the girls gathered around me and asked what I “did” to him. LOL. So I told them, I nice-d him to death. I taught them how to do it.

Now I’m teaching you.

Where ever you are in your life, whatever you do, you will come into contact with people who are angry and frustrated and who think for whatever reason that they can or should take it out on you. For yourself, know that the hatred they feel is not for you – in fact, it is most likely for themselves. Love them. Nice them to death. I don’t promise that they will give you any fulfillment as that man did for me with his words (okay, the cash was nice, too – dancers are the worlds cheapest psychiatrists) but maybe, just maybe, you will heal them a little tiny bit. Maybe it will even be that little bit they need to turn it around, to make them see themselves, to give them a little bit of hope for the outside world treating them kindly. To remind them that we are all just doing the best we can with what we’ve got.

Blessedbe