If you are working that Law of Attraction…

A word of caution.

A long time ago the expert mechanic who worked on my families cars told me, “Do not do what you love for work, because then it becomes work and eventually you do not love it anymore.”

Today every expert on the Law of Attraction, and on making millions tells you to “follow your dreams” or “do what you love” and the money will come. And of course we ALL want to be millionaires, right? (No, but we do by and large wish we could live a little more comfortably – but that doesn’t play as well in the ads)

I loved to draw, and I loved to write. Twenty years ago I was among the first few to hear and heed that advice. I spent twenty years chasing my dream in many forms, perverting my writing and my art, twisting and turning it to fit whatever mold was the current best, easy way to make lots of money with your art/writing according to the latest experts in the crafts.

Not only did I not ever become a millionaire – in fact, I never made what anyone would consider a living wage – I’ve lost the love.

I’m retired now. Really. Well, okay, as retired as I will ever be. Now and then I do get the itch to draw. As you can see here, once in a while I have some thoughts I feel compelled to commit to paper (so to speak) but by and large I am not really interested. And if I do create, I am even less interested in sharing it publicly. The last thing I want to do is twist and turn it into something that might make me a buck or two.

It’s tempting to turn the comments off on this post. If you are going to scream at me that I’m all wrong and should shut up and not tell anyone that the latest fad failed, spare me, please? Or, of course, I must have done it all wrong and it is my fault. I worry that the way this latest philosophy is taught, it always leaves that opening – that if you don’t succeed it is not the fault of the method but YOUR fault. You didn’t do it right, or enough, or with enough focus or belief or whatever. And if that is what you think, I’m fine with that. Just keep it to yourself. Thanks.

But consider, if you’ve been pounding at your dreams for a few years, or are just thinking about diving in – it could just be the latest craze. After all, there is no better way to make money than to promise to tell other people how to make money if they will just send you a few dollars…

Don’t get me wrong. I do believe in affirmations. I believe in prayer and blessings and reiki and paying it forward and karma. I’ve seen all those things work in my life, in my own experience.

Just not the ones about making a living with my creativity. So, it’s not meant to be, and that’s fine. But I wish I had not pursued my dream until it became more of a nightmare. And I’d rather share this so that maybe others won’t do the same thing.

How about this. Do what makes you a living. Use your extra money to enjoy your dreams.



Living on the Down Low

(Cross-posted at Blogger) If you are one of the few brave souls who have been with me for lo these many years of blogging and writing and webpage designing, wow, I love you. 

So you’ve probably noticed at some point I’m actually an introvert. Left to my own devices I would use the Internet for learning, research, entertainment, and keeping in touch with people who are now spread far and wide. 

However, in 1999 or so I embarked on a journey to “make money on the Internet”. What a long, strange trip it’s been. And to that end as advised by every advisor, I had a “web presence”. Just as I once forced myself to smile and approach customers and make small talk, I then forced myself to smile and write what I hoped were useful and/or interesting blogs and social media posts. It had it’s moments. I met some pretty awesome people. I got to have some major rants. I have kept journals since I was a child, so blogging was more or less a natural extension although now I was writing to a specific subject and/or audience much of the time. I like to write.

Not only have I never become “rich working from home”, I’ve never come anywhere near making a living. And recently, not just me, but my husband has been soundly punished and penalized in a severe fashion that could have actually caused his death because I dared to make a few bucks. Literally, I made less than $20 per month in royalties and for that we were penalized $165 out of his check for six months, along with the loss of all food stamps and all of my medical. We literally could not afford enough to eat or the supplements and vitamins he must have. Interesting enough, I can sell plasma – make more money in less time – and not be penalized at all for that. It’s taken me about a year to get this all straightened out, and I’m learning that we can live in his income and still have his medical needs met. If I don’t make anything! 

This is NOT an easy thing for me. I think I’ve got to be DOING SOMETHING all the time. So I AM. You know, most people retire and do those things they always wanted to do. So, I’m retired and what I always wanted to do was learn. I always wanted to go to college, read non-fiction, etc. I can’t afford college so I’m enjoying books, documentaries and my big splurge – Great Courses. 

And as you may have noticed, I’ve all but quit blogging. I no longer have any need of a public web presence. I’ll probably write, and I’ll probably find a spot to republish my novels where you can read them online for free. One of these days. Yes, I’ll post a link here when I do. And, face it, I like to rant now and then. Even if I do suspect it makes the government watch me. As if they have time to bother with me – surely they have better things to do.

My point being – don’t look for daily or even weekly or even monthly posts. I’ll write when I’ve got something to say that I think merits a public forum. Hope that works for you. If you’re a close pal who would like more frequent updates, check out my facebook page. I’ve closed my Twitter account, and my Patreon account and I don’t actually use anything now except facebook to post on, this blog, and my blog at blogger. Posts here will probably be crossposted there. Posts that are rants will go here. Posts that are reviews or stuff to do with anime, books, etc. will probably go live at WordPress now. Chances are that in time, most everything will end up at WordPress. 

Thanks for being here

Blessed be

Summer Foovay